STANDING IN TALL GRASS… A REFLECTION ON FEAR & FAITHFULNESS

I don’t know why, but I am absolutely terrified of walking through tall grass! To be clear – the very idea of stepping in tall grass produces take my breath away, panic, heart pounding fear! I know… It’s pretty dumb!

I suppose it isn’t so much the grass I fear but what could be lurking in the grass- fear of the unknown – snakes, giant spiders, big hopping insects… All things that, when I see them coming, I don’t find so scary.  Last year, I set a goal to confront this fear, but I have done everything possible to avoid it, much to the detriment of my adventurous side!

Until yesterday…

My sweet Emma (who is not afraid of tall grass) came running into my mother in law’s home screaming that she lost the key to the John Deere Gator. Giant tears dropped from her eyes and rolled down her cheeks as she explained her predicament. Trying to be calming and supportive I gave her a big hug and told her not to worry, we would find it! I put my shoes on (Toms, no socks!) and we walked out the door, holding hands, to search for the key. I guess I expected the Gator to be parked in front of the house somewhere, where the grass was freshly mowed the morning before, but to my big surprise, the Gator was in the middle of a 120 acre field of waist high grass… with my daughter, Hannah! Unfortunately, I passed on my ridiculous fear of tall grass to Hannah, so I didn’t need to see her face to know she was pretty scared out there!

I wanted to scream but as I looked at Emma’s sad little face and out into the field where terrified Hannah was, I knew I had to be brave! But it was SO hard…

As I approached the tall grass, I could feel my heart pounding in my chest, my face was completely wet with sweat. In I went, knee deep, then chest deep in the tall grass. I started to run, then stopped, then ran again… large heavy insects jumped and plopped all around me. I prayed “Oh Lord, help me!” And then, I ran the rest of the way, holding Emma’s hand tightly, eyes fixed on that John Deere Gator and my sweet Hannah. Fear could not win! My kids were depending on me!

I jumped on the Gator and hugged my girls as I caught my breath. Panic subsided and I thanked God for getting us through that field. (Did we really have to get off the Gator to find the key?!)

I will tell you that after searching through the field, sometimes on hands and knees, we didn’t find the key. My husband rescued us, as he often does, and all ended as well as it could have.

I have been thinking about fear ever since… Mainly the crippling fear that causes us not to move forward bravely, one step at a time, toward the direction God is calling us to go. In the midst of my reflection, I was reminded of the verses in 2 Timothy 1:6-7:

This is why I remind you to fan into flames the spiritual gift God gave you when I laid my hands on you. For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.

If God isn’t the source of fear, then why do we let it stop us from boldly and urgently reaching out to those He calls us to reach? As I reflect on how fear sometimes prevents me from living out my faith and the call God has placed on my life, I wonder, what would the church look like today if we didn’t give in? What would the world look like if we relied on God for the power, love and self discipline that is needed to do the work He calls us – CHOOSES US – to do?

Maybe for you it is fear of the unknown… Maybe it is fear of failing… Maybe it’s fear of change… Maybe it’s fear of not being qualified for the job… Maybe it’s fear of opposition… Maybe it is fear of letting go of the life you’re comfortable with… Or maybe it is fear of making someone mad…

Whatever it is, I want to assure you that when God chooses you for a job, He WILL provide all that is needed to get it done. The only thing we have to do is be faithful. Sometimes that faithfulness requires us to do things that terrify us!

I don’t know what God is asking you to do today, but I hope you will say YES… because I believe He will do great things through His faithful people.

When I saw Emma’s tears as she feared the worst about that Gator key, all I could do was work to ease her fears. When I saw Hannah out in the middle of the field, all I could think about was rescuing my baby girl…

We don’t rescue. God does. But we are so blessed to be chosen to be messengers of God’s love to a world that so badly needs to be rescued right now. Don’t let fear get in the way of reaching the people God calls you to reach… He will provide the courage you lack. I promise!

Fear can not win! God chose you to be brave so the world will know Him better. What is God calling you to do today that terrifies you?

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-Helene


1 Comment

  1. well said
    How often should we, can we take real life and apply some relevant tangible bible truths…Ni am glad you made it brought the tall grass of fear and cling to the cross for strength. Go team tall grass has nothing on me.
    Thanks for sharing

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